03.

I have seriously been thinking about my future the last few days,  that is actually the most prominent reason that I haven't been posting ... all the time that I spend on my computer is based on loaded search engines and extensive notes on Universities.  The internet sucks! Of course these websites that are supposed to represent the intended University are resourceful in the sense that they tell you what they offer, where they are located and how many awards they have won ... but as an individual who really would just rather see the facts plain and simple - this doesn't really work for me.  It is kind of sucky that I can't just go to my guidance counsellor anymore to say "hey .. so this is what I want to do - what do I need to take?" as simple as that.  No such luck, so who can I go and talk to about this? Ughh .. adult life is so frustrating and confusing.  I have mostly, almost, kind of, not really, sort of decided that I want to get my degree in journalism.  Of course this is all only as a back up because lets face it all I want to do is act so if I can't do that then whatever I am doing won't even closely compare but hey! a Plan B never hurt anyone.  Plus, I want to have a University experience .. frosh week looks like so much fun! With journalism I have to ability to work for a celebrity news show like Entertainment Tonight - in that case at least I get to interview actors and actress only dreaming that I were them.  Anyway ... those are my thoughts for tonight, hopefully I will get better at updating this more often.

S.

.the.university.brings.out.all.abilities..including.incapabilities.

02.

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE 

PS HATERS CAN HATE .... I DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU THINK

01.

It seems to me that as life goes on, as it is apparently supposed to we are always forced to make decisions that constantly question who we are.  In the past years of high school I have gone through what have seemed to be the worst experiences of my life.  According to EVERY teen movie and show nowadays the time that you spend in high school is supposed to be the best times in your life.  For me it hasn't exactly been the worst but it certainly wasn't a time that I would love to relive over again like some cheesy TV show in my head.  I wish I could say that my life is all planned out for me now that I have graduated but in all honesty that is completely false, I have no idea what I am going to do with my life.  What I want to do with it -- all my hopes and dreams kind of feel like they are never going to happen and you know that is probably because at the moment I am not doing anything intellectual with my time.  Weirdly enough I actually miss using my brain.  I've decided that as this year goes by I might as well document the impact that it is making on me.  It's a safe harbor where I can release my feelings about ... everything.  No names will be used not even my own, but won't that make it all the better for someone who randomly might come across it.  I mean don't we all want to learn new things about each other especially if one is being completely honest about something ... in the back of our minds we all would love to believe that our lives endure the worst of the worst but rarely take time to think about others.  This blog will include everything and anything that I feel like possessing, I am - for the first time in my life - going to do what I want when I want without caring about what everyone else is either telling me or expecting me to do.  To be honest I have been a pushover and a follower for most of my life and if I really want to be famous, and be a role model for others I must take control of my own life and make my future happen for me.  I hope that in doing this I will be able to say that I did everything I could to make my dreams came true.


S.

Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are.